Spontaneity..looking inside

Umm it is good to be spontaneous..to call a spade spade.But I find it difficult to do so.So many times something had stopped me from saying so...perhaps anxiety of doing the work i was involved during that period in time and sympathy for them too.In fact it creates all that fight and react syndrome so I prefer not do so which is not favourable always .Open expression free of urgency of any kind in time sometimes makes you know what you want and what is your priority.I do not like ugliness specially that of heart.I do not like ugly people with ugly intentions but i never made that a priority for myself ,i do not like beautiful people with ugly intentions but i never included this preference in my life.So I have always been in company of such people and i least tried to save myself from them.Why do I not want them around ..it is not superficial ...they emit negative vibes and are always hungry for positive vibes of others...playing all mind games to attain that,trying to get attention with all wrong acts possible and all that..It makes one disturbed and lose peace in managing things that are not required and waste life like a burning candle loses wax..............detailed analysis of such people later:)