Being hot

:)To me being hot means being contented .So let me eat,drink,sleep and live.This is my life and that is how i plan it to be led by me.Uncontented souls,whoever you are pls be away ,let me breathe .

Delhi Belly!

One of the cheap movies available in history of Indian movies.I see nothing worth viewing in the movie unless you are into use of thrilling abusive language .All fuck... fucker...slangs .A "B "grade movie indeed that is being sold by a supposedly "A" class actor Mr. Amir Khan.It is more of an adult (as accepted by the producer)
"B" grade movie ."Comedy" !(where is comedy ,next time a magnifying glass is to be used to explore it).Well it is not a novel idea to use abusive language ,yes using it in comedy is somewhat new as DEV D,LSD etc. etc. have already set a path to be followed to ensure success at box office.Actors had nothing to do except being what they may be in real life. Music again is road side type.So nothing to watch if you believe movie has some purpose of presenting decent kind of recreation,message,display of emotions etc.etc.

Drama of life...

I just noticed how easy it is to defraud self for majority of people :)Yes sometime ago it was really surprising and more than that painful for me ,but now i understand it as a fact and though still not completely painless yet it is acceptable to an extent.It feels bad because the human inside that relates to human inside other people feels the suffocation created by other people for self and others .It brings alongwith itself smell of death....A dead body that is decomposing fast smells lighter than a dead soul.I feel soul needs liberty........a world where desires and complexes do not enslave it to minimize its size to far lesser extent than it actually deserves .In fact it is disheartening to see man fall down to petty desires .Greed,lust,anger,attachments ,illusion make people downsize so easily and guess what this is what drama of life on earth feeds on .If everyone could see it with open eyes and know the truth beyond it, everyone must have got liberated and this is what destiny does not aim at.So bear the pain all you sensitive souls and overcome to be wiser and sharp in vision being the witness God wants you to be....

Heart driven...

I do not know whether everyone knows about it.Amongst brain driven people there are people who live with their heart.And it is not at all easy I must say.Being such is more like always moving around with a naked electric wire inside you that gives electric shocks to you every now and then.There is no earth wire to let current pass into earth and as a result it passes through to you only.What causes these shocks?Obviously unexpected acts of those around you that you do not expect from them ie being satanic :) that is a part of majority OF HUMAN BEINGS.Ah what a pain..and what a life full of shocks.Ever imagined a hyper sensitive child in a big cruel world!......................shall continue later.

Love!

Love between two people in its deepest meaning is the desire to sacrifice :)

Sad but true, unless one comes to know this fact by own experience one can not become awakened.From here comes the truth that true love is all about forgetting yourself.And so one has to learn to reach the stage of love and progress beyond love is next to impossible for majority leaving aside the rare ones.Way beyond it is.......:)guess yourself.But yes it must be beautiful just like the way love is.

Oh, this maternal instinct!

As the title says sometimes maternal instinct makes a person weak enough to take a right decision.Then one becomes unable to understand the difference between true and fake sorrow of others .Hence he/she acts invain to save the other person who does not deserve help and care as he/she says (though psychological help is needed for him /her ).Now that is wastage of efforts and emotions of self .Empathy can act as a sword against him who does not differentiate between true and fake people and thereby builds illusion for self.A mother knows when her child is crying and when he is acting :) Hence save your maternal qualities but just be aware of those who want care and affection from everyone around at their cost :(

Sincerity

I am in love with this word.How difficult it is to be sincere in approach towards people,work and life?I guess it is too much difficult that is why it is rare to find sincerity as an attribute in daily life.Why does it happen?Life itself could not have originated had there been insincerity on part of one who created life.But still we the mini form of him lack it usually.Imagine if only everyone could have this single attribute in his/her personality how beautiful everything in human society could be...building of beautiful personal and professional relations ,growth of individual as well as society,completion all around,marvelous..no time for going down,fall or deterioration of any kind.Eve and Adam would not have tasted forbidden fruit then that made man mortal . :) . But perhaps this is what is planned for Earth and its inhabitants.Divinity is what human usually does not deserve hence lack of the spine necessary for the same called sincerity prevails :)

Desires...hold no value..

I still do not know what desires are meant for?
Money... will give you objects but not joy.It evaporates as soon as you get the object in your hands.Do you remember ..when you were a kid wanting to get a toy...
Power ...Illudes that you are another God but are you?How many people do you rule and for how long!Death will eradicate your signs as if you were never there.
Sex....Losing yourself with other lost people.Celibacy and sex are one and the same for a wise person as feeling of being together is felt by heart ultimately ,body is the way to it for those who can not go beyond concrete into the real abstract world of love where doors of eyes are used to reach straight the heart of lover.The more one has lack of this true knowledge the more one will wander into streets of lust where body is the only thing one knows about hence it is what it seeks union with. In the process it loses itself too.It never comes to feel the true bliss of being one with other as it gets caught by mind's trap of satiating need to get physical joy by seeking novelty later that never gets fulfilled .
Everytime one feels true unity with other, one comes out of limited concept of self full of self made and world made complexes and gets true and bigger picture of self that ultimately becomes grand and indescribable if one keeps proceeding on this path to divine knowledge.

Heart to heart

Well when there is a feeling of affection and trust towards someone, a light from one's heart reaches light being emitted from that persons heart.Reaching there either it feels union with another shining halo or it may be reflected back as the heart of another person may be blocked by a wall built inside it .The more selfish a person is the more will be the blockage of his heart by the wall .There may be lesser blockage depending upon the extent of selfishness.Love and affection arise where blockage is not found by heart.This is where one comes to feel perfection ,divine or God himself.That is why true love liberates a person completely.
If you believe your inner voice you may atonce know about openness of other person's heart as you may not feel comfortable or at ease with a person with closed heart.But if you yourself do not let your feeling domain act you would not know this.
If you do, and still you do not believe it you will know it after harm to your own heart after more interactions with such a person.

What if someone steps on your toes?

1.If someone steps on your toe,what will you do?The very first human reaction would be to defend your toe by attacking that of attacker.
But what for them who are not able to do so?Should they keep being beaten and attacked?

2.What if someone says something very stupid very convincingly making fool of listener/s knowingly?The very first human reaction would be to ask him to stop atonce and talk sense.
But what for them who are not able to do so?Should they keep their mouth shut and listen to all mindless crap that causes loss to them the most?

3.What if you are intelligent than rest of the population but you start hiding it ,ignoring it being unable to confront those who matter?

4.Can closing your eyes prevent the day from being known as "day"?It is deceiving own self,suffocating self ,suppressing own voice.

5.It is not true tolerance but torturing self.Everything has an age to be done at.Let anger be shown and then gradually it will sublime taking one to higher level of evolution.

6.Anger can not end for ever from one's life nor it should.It saves oneself from
being a prey to others who knowingly or unknowingly cause suffering to you .


Infact ignorance is bliss until you know how to handle the truth and the speaker.

Since my childhood, I find people speaking nonsense things that do not have any link among themselves.I used to ask questions at times just to find they had more complex answers when asked to clarify..I used to think perhaps I had low intelligence being too much sober and on humility's side not wanting to make others feel unpleasant by confronting them.I wondered at those getting highest grades in Maths and Chemistry .Now I understand it is ability to ignore linking of things learnt before and after what is being taught and saving self from getting into depth of things :)
There is a line and it has an origin called point ,does not matter whether the student ever relate it to how concept of line and point came into existence,whether they occur in reality ,whether they are there in literature too (individual is a point and society is a line is not it :))


no answers except making others a fool and show own intelligence be it teachers,uncle and aunts,employers whatever...

Now I understand this.Hence when I again went to college I did this thing called confrontation (not aggressive though)to reach the truth stated above.Teachers ie professional and all those who try to teach others are unable to know, understand and
grasp things themselves and even if they do they are unable to give the same tablet to others.Thus they fail to communicate what they are supposed to do.


I correct them very few times as it seems so irritating to do so as they try to hide things over instead of accepting their stupidity and correct themselves.Who can like such people's presence ,atleast not me.Again their infrared
vibes start making one feel uncomfortable.Stuck at the initial levels of growth
they keep trying to be boss though they are nothing more than crows in nature trying to get more and more at the cost of others :)

That is why I do not like to be with people who have ulterior motives and superficial knowledge .The more you listen the more you feel to shut them up in Aladin's bottle for ever.:(

What is important in a human being?

Hmm everyone has own list of characteristics one prefers in people around him/her.To me simplicity and goodness of heart are the basic ones.I feel these two things make people acquire every other attribute itself that makes such people almost perfect human.Good and bad experiences change everyone a bit but ultimately what remains effective in one depends only on what one basically is,more on the selfish side or on the selfless side.Every such person evolves in the journey of life and this is what we re here for ..to learn ,to modify ,to live and thus finally to love as only due to love one can learn till last :).Those who love live and others just spend time.

Meditation

I feel it takes us to ultimate truths ,to unexplored world.Secrets of images,pictures,shapes,entities are revealed ....There exists a large world of which this small world is only a small part.What is needed is burning desire to know truth ....an honest heart.......a lesser sharp ego :)

Reacting much..why?

Sometimes we react so much over things and events .Everything is not ok.It is good to know this,to ask about it and if needed, to stop things too to not let wrong continue but it should be done without losing our own energy in anger,surprise and sadness.After all everything can not be correct nor anyone can stop us from demanding what is right .Atleast effort in this direction can not be stopped and that matters the most.We do our part sincerely and let whatever comes as a result.No defeat is last and no victory is final on the big canvas of life.So why to lose patience and tolerance over petty issues and pseudo-intelligent beings whose mind can not think straight :)

DEV D.....

Today I am back to my critic self...I watched this so stupid movie DEV D .I really do not understand what it intended to show !It was a movie about a moron who falls in ..i dnt know what to say with another moron :).Due to misunderstandings they part their ways (when were they together I still could not find out) .She gets married and he starts regretting :( (regretting what, not getting physical!)
and drinking (As far as I remember he was doing it beforehand too,do I need memory pill or the script writer does).Then he meets someone great ! :) Guess what a prostitute !(single sensible character in the movie ,the dad of joker hero who had already told his son that you stupid you are of no use, you run after waste )
Then one day he apprehends his own death and suddenly he understands what life is :){getting married to the prostitute)

Very inspiring to children and their dad and mom :)
and yes very educative too ,teaching how to use abusive language.
I watched it cos a lot my friends appreciated this.

The End :)Happy ending.What did you get?I got nothing.Wastage of time...Hero amazingly unheroic ,heroine 1. Catty ,more looking like a side heroine heroine 2. She could have got braces could not she, if not atleast she should not have come before public to give them entertainment dose bro,i understand director was her B.F.

Mini Gods

Those who smile for us innocently and are there without any selfishness are all our mini Gods :)

To every human being who understands the significance of goodness of heart,appreciates innocence of heart and can feel the positive vibes emitted from certain people ,there are his/her Mini gods .People... who stand there with him/her when no one else wants to,who share his pains more than his joys.People... who can not see his/her tears, who care for him/her in truest sense.People..who connect with him/her for unknown reasons ,who feel familiar to heart perhaps because of implicit unconscious remembrance of originating from the same God.

Only a heart can connect to a heart and not a mind.In this over crowded world,minds supercede hearts still if one finds these mini gods one is fortunate and meant to be chosen for evolution in life as they hold you upright when you are ready to fall and accept defeat in life,who won't let you get defeated unless they are nomore there to prevent the same.Those whose smiles show you your true persona ,your true self in their sparkling loving eyes that even you are not able to see :) They are your angels for life.You live till they exist and vice a versa ..............

What happens when trust falls apart....

Now this one is a really hard lesson more difficult than chewing blades .When one come s to trust other people he/she reaches to a cliff along with that person be it any relation.And then it is upon the other person in picture whether to make one enjoy forced bungee jumping without any rope to make one safe or not .Now if that person is a balanced person with a still mind and beautiful heart (generally a theist by heart), he/she will never let that experience be felt by anyone but if one is with someone who has a wandering mind and imbalance in personality {generally an atheist) ,one must be prepared to experience forced Bungee jumping :)
I myself have experienced one and believe me it is a fatal and dreadful experience.

People we trust are like our mini Gods who make us more humane and help us to evolve and grow.


When you get pushed to earth from a cliff by someone you never believe can do so ,you find yourself broken with nothing to help you stand on earth.You have to gather yourself all over again as if you are getting a new life where it is you who has to bear the pain of giving birth and still it is you who is taking birth.
Unless one has divine support one can not stand all over again and gets crippled for life unable to trust anyone afterwards.Doubts and suspicions get a permanent place in minds of such people never letting them be normal or open their hearts to others.


Why does it happen?
You tend to lose touch with the reality of life when you tend to trust someone blindly and that person is not worth trust.You become a conductor passing grounding energy from earth to that person due to which that person does not want you to get out of his/her life but does not even change himself/herself from committing breach of trust against you.You yourself keep losing your balance that makes you survive on earth making it available for that person who himself/herself has lost this connection with earth by being a person of mind that is always planning to take advantage of others.And when you finally realise what has happened on getting the true picture of that person you go through an unbearable shock though the damage was very much in picture being caused since the day you came in contact with such person.

We all tend to commit mistakes in life and this is one of blunders one makes specially those who are extra soft and vulnerable inside.One who is on wrong path will never feel what he/she is doing to you because selfishness makes him/her blind and heart dried to feel anything for others .So if you wish to be in touch with such people , better trust them with open eyes so that you do not have to go through a forced bungee jumping experience ever.

Purpose of life...?

Somewhere we all need a purpose for doing things.Perhaps being rational in approach we can not do things without having a self approved reason.Why do we live?Why does human want a purpose in life?There may be many sub purposes related to living life but the main purpose is nothing but living life :)Do you need a reason for letting your heart beat or your breath be taken out /in ?In fact had they not been the involuntary activities of body, human might have stopped or manipulated them too owing to own intelligence :)
What is living life....action and reaction syndrome or fight or flee responses ?Obviously not any of them.But still it is what rules lives of millions on earth.Can we celebrate the festival called life just for the sake of it as there is nothing else as important as enjoying our existence among all other splendid creations around.Very small acts and very small events can give joy to a mind at rest while those searching happiness in goods or relations are entrapped in a vicious cycle of pleasure and pain .Rarely a relation among two people is found to be peaceful and this is completely priceless but to find it both people are needed to be at peace.
As far as goods are concerned they can not give much saturation after fulfillment of basic needs.What they can do is to give birth to "EGO" to help one find purpose of satisfying it all the time and thus keeping oneself engaged to ignore emptiness inside that always makes one restless to achieve something unaffordable at present . It seems like trying to find a crow with seven colored wings that does not exist in reality :)

Talks

At times people talk,talk and talk... to mean nothing at all ...To communicate efficiently lesser words are required and is required a clear mind with clear picture of what it wants to convey .Extra words just suggest either people are not clear in head about the issue in hand or they are clear but they do not want to make it clear to other .....cheating,hiding or lies in the background :)

Ugly...

I cant stand ugliness whether in habits,thoughts or appearances unless there is something precious attached due to which it can be set aside in a living or non living being.It kinds of repel me miles away from the concerned object or human being.The disharmony felt is really intolerable to the extent of being painful and i do not think anyone sensitive to inner scale and having harmony in self can bear the same.Harmony has a soothing attracting magnetic effect while disharmony acts the other way.Hence it is essential to save ones harmony as well as stay away from disharmony of others.Yes being away from temporary disharmony is not possible for anyone but one must be able to recognise it and balance it in self whenever felt.But those who enjoy being so must be avoided by sensitive souls to be able to live peacefully .Those who lack harmony would get your substitute but you would not be able to survive being in their company in the long run.Opposites always attract but the prey is always consumed by the the predator hence find positive entities like self .

Sketch...

3 years back had started sketching :) and turned to studies and left all that listening to books and their readers:) Feel shall come back to it again..Not a bad artist :)

Body....take care of it

Body is the temple where soul resides:)
It is the index of soul.Grace is shown in appearance specially when there is no enhancer or make up tacts used to camofulage the truth beneath.Whether we have been taking care of the voice inside or have been suppressing it ,caring too much for listening to others or overusing it to suppress others is visible through our physical appearance.Clarity in voice and sparkle in eyes are the criteria of shining inner beauty.Ofcourse it needs changes in diet,life style and attitude too but then what one gets in return is awesome:)

Spontaneity..looking inside

Umm it is good to be spontaneous..to call a spade spade.But I find it difficult to do so.So many times something had stopped me from saying so...perhaps anxiety of doing the work i was involved during that period in time and sympathy for them too.In fact it creates all that fight and react syndrome so I prefer not do so which is not favourable always .Open expression free of urgency of any kind in time sometimes makes you know what you want and what is your priority.I do not like ugliness specially that of heart.I do not like ugly people with ugly intentions but i never made that a priority for myself ,i do not like beautiful people with ugly intentions but i never included this preference in my life.So I have always been in company of such people and i least tried to save myself from them.Why do I not want them around ..it is not superficial ...they emit negative vibes and are always hungry for positive vibes of others...playing all mind games to attain that,trying to get attention with all wrong acts possible and all that..It makes one disturbed and lose peace in managing things that are not required and waste life like a burning candle loses wax..............detailed analysis of such people later:)

Loaylty..the biggest virtue

Ever wondered what is required most in the world?The answer may vary from person to person.But the fact is that human seeks loyalty MOST from other people.No matter what but others must maintain our belief in them even if he/she himself/herself do not do so :)Yes it is ironic but this is what is required to live as a human.A loyal person is the biggest strength of anyone whether he/she realises it or not.Levels of loyalty differ in different people ,some are loyal in words,some in deeds and then some in thoughts too .Loyalty brings sincerity,honesty and tolerance also along with it and one who gets them in form of any relation comes to get a source of strength that may be more powerful than his/her own strength.So value them if you have got them in a person or else later you will repent over your loss when you will lose the person because virtues chase the suitable person who can value and respect them :(
And before everything else how many people are loyal even in deeds today leaving aside that in thoughts ?

Affection leads to love sometimes..

I talked about true love in last post.Love has its origin in affection.None can love someone without having feelings of affection towards other people.When one learns to feel the innocence,honesty and sincerity present in other people one is on the path of loving...where one yearns to save those priceless attributes by developing a protective attitude towards such people because these are the things that matter in life.Everything else is just like shining sand of desert.It appears valuable but it has nothing of essence inside it.Ever felt how a treasure full of gold would be ,radiating heat in form of yellow lights...that burns the heart and soul.
Affection is the beginning of being human, being able to feel.Love may or may not arise out of it but yes affection is hundred percent pure.
Love blooms out of affection when one comes to know that the affectionate person is mature enough to value existence of the person who carries feelings of affection towards him/her and wants him to be present around for life leaving aside everyone else as that level of unselfish and unconditional level is not present in other relations thereby connecting to that person with heart and soul.Until and unless it happens love can not transform out of affection.Having a feeling to protect someone internally beautiful just for the sake of it and nothing else is feeling the ultimate power or god himself and is being on the path of being a lover but getting respected for it is essential to really being a lover.Thus it is a two way process.One has to feel and show his level of commitment to love or be loved.World has no place in this.It is a unselfish relation that gives such courage to heart that one can accept everything for it............Nothing else matters and nothing else can be bargained in lieu of it.

Stone Civilisation.....

I am supposed to study but I am least inclined to do so.Things taking shapes in mind...
Just perceived a truth.How much difficult is to love truly!In fact either one can do so or one can not do so.It is congenital but yes gradually one learns to know about existence of such feelings and the next step is to have such feelings for others and at last to see beyond this level of growth.Today or tomorrow but one has to evolve this way .None can escape this route.Yes majority of us are still moving around the levels where we love others for their possessions that we want to share with them be it their wealth,bodies and power.Thus it is about being limited to selfishness of fulfilling materialistic needs.Somewhere it creates a vaccume inside hearts nevertheless people try to fill it with "stuff" but it keeps on widening unless it consumes whole of being resulting in a stone in form of human who has nothing to feel about ,neither self nor others.Along with heart ,body and gradually mind gets calcified.The fluidity that is base of existence of living beings and that differentiates it from non living matter disappears.Looking around we can find majority belonging to this stone civilisation.They laugh but laughter is not from heart but mind,they sympathise but sympathy is fake.They appreciate what they condemn in private,they condemn what they do in private.

The part that is ghostly...........

I know it may sound weird but yes inside majority is suffering from ghostly invasion.You are not merely you but someone suffering from negative desires.Until we are not desiring losses for others originating from jealousy that itself originates from a sense of insecurity we can not be suffering from any ghost.Sleep is the best indicator of this suffering.One who enjoys sound sleep is free from it and can know what life is.So take away your ghost out of yourself and enjoy life :)

Being hippy, why?

Every one wants to be a hippy when young ,starting from Gautam budhha to Laotze to Osho to gen today :) Ultimately it all gets washed with age ..........why?Do not overload self with further illusions .Clear the cobweb of ugly world instead of creating a new imaginary one for yourself.The feeling of loneliness makes one eager to go astray and the origin of this feeling is ego itself.Kill the ego to feel the natural psychedelic of love and empathy.

Sleep

I can not take fatigue easily.My body system is attuned to taking pause in between while working ,engaged in creative pursuits or even dealing with people.Well this is what makes me get in depth of what i get engaged with.Hence it is all or none situation for me.So dealing with things/people for me is like meditation .Yes it may seem good to know something/someone inside out like an X-ray but yes it is really tiring and making you vulnerable to wrong vibes/evils of others .

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Youth

Youth of a wise person!The road lies ahead...........to knowledge of life,world and universe that is in store and more than it.Getting command over senses and still enjoying through senses.Great! the universe is waiting ,come and know all its secrets.The pulse is the origin as well as end of it.

Relations /curtailed freedom?

Was just thinking about relations.Relations lose their meaning if freedom is not provided to people involved and thus becomes a forced bond.But if self felt limits/imposed limits are not there then it becomes a case of laissez faire .Now how many people feel need to impose limits for self?In fact this ability to feel need to control self lacks in majority of people because of nature,worldly stimulations,tensions,and desires etc.So they keep crossing limits of relation in absence of external control thereby breaking it in fact though not formally.

Hence rules are imposed by person in power to keep the relation going on.But it brings passive aggression in the other person.Whether or not he/she shows it expressly,it is always there :)

Now if freedom is given even then it is difficult ,if it is not given even then it is hard :)
If freedom is there ,relations can not survive the way Osho's commune reflect and if it is there,it shall becomes laissez faire for sure .
Thus freedom is curtailed to keep relations going,creating stereotypes in the long run to keep relation/organised societyin existence.

When I see people around me i find that throughout life people keep on struggling over this issue .They hate each other still their needs make them live together.It is nothing else and precious life is lost this way.
Do we have a solution for the world in this respect -man/woman,parent/children,individual/society,employer/employee relations?
No :)
Until and unless one has time ,intention and ability to feel need to set limits for self ,one can not understand the truth explained above.